Thursday, October 25, 2007
I asked this question last week on my mental high from Dick Collins, ready to jump into another 50 miler and excited about the prospect. One problem with that. Despite feeling like superwoman, I don't think my body is really as invincible as I was hoping. I mulled over the idea last week, and mulled, too, over the calf muscle that's been bothering me for the last month, the perpetual cold I can't seem to shake, and the graduate course work that's piling up.
Back in reality, fifty miles is pretty far. I think that I fell for that mentality of, "well, I did it, so it can't be that challenging" and forgot that it was a pretty big deal, and that it's okay if I need time to recover from it.
I've only run three times since the race, in part because I've just been tired and sick, and in part because I've been trying to spend more time on school work since, well, I can. It's sort of nice being able to take a break, to not feel too guilty for missing a run.
But, and this is a big but, not running does NOT feel good. I'm still eating like crazy, which isn't making my body (or my clothes for that matter) happy, and I'm still feeling the achiness that I feel during tapers when I don't run. Added to that, I had a running panic dream last night. I was running a 50 miler that started at 7pm (until 6am, it was a strange race) and somehow got the times mixed up, thinking it was starting at 7:30. So at 6:30 I realized I needed to be leaving NOW, and was frantically trying to pull together all the clothes and stuff I would need for the race, panicking about getting together night gear, and knowing I was going to be late. As I searched for clothes, I just kept finding the dirty clothes from the last 50 miler I had done, which was a few days before. I woke up both certain that I'm not in shape to do another 50 miler right now, and that I really, really, needed to run.
I just did an easy 6 miler around the 1/2 mile track at my school between my classes, which was good, but made my calf hurt. It's not a can't run hurt, but it is still worrisome. Then again, resting doesn't seem to be helping, so I'm thinking maybe I need to make it stronger? I don't know, I've never dealt with injuries. So I'm still torn on whether running more is good or less. But less doesn't feel good, so I think if I do decide to cut back on mileage, I really need to find some other activity so that I can still be active the same amount.
I also need a race to put on the calendar. Without some date as motivation, I find it much harder to get out there every day (well, 5 days a week). I need that outward push! So I'm thinking putting Woodside 50k on there. It should be the easiest 50k I've done (only 4500 ft elevation gain) and it's on the trails of my first trail run/race ever last february. I feel odd not picking something more challenging than my last event to shoot for, as that seems to be what I've always done, but I guess it's okay to give myself a break :)
So, I think, that's what's next!